So last night when I was giving Hazel a tub, As I normally do at night; I turn on some Taylor Swift and sit down to supervise. Last night was nothing different. I did exactly that, and she sat there and played with her toys -like she does. And that’s when it happen, Taylor really knows how to get the moms sometimes, doesn’t she. Never grow up hit the speakers and my gosh I couldn’t help but get emotional and teary. Watching her sit there, playing, while I was listening to the words and watching the lyrics come to life. Everything was happening exactly right.
I can’t begin to describe how fast this past year went, I look at Hazel every day and think how did you get so big. She has been so interested in learning new things. I love how her little mind works. The other night she was putting a straw into a water bottle. We sat there for a good five minutes -at least- focusing on putting the straw into the water bottle. There are just sometimes when I want to know exactly what she is thinking and this was one of them. The focus and intent that she had.
I sit and think of all the things I’ve done with her. All these new things that she loves doing, the habits she is forming, I mean she’s addicted to listening to music and constantly is requesting itsy-bitsy-spider. I might as well put it on repeat so I don’t have to be glued to the remote. I love that she loves me, although sometimes it can be overbearing and I feel like I don’t have time to myself. But it’s like Hook says…
“Your children love you, they want to play with you. How long do you think that lasts? Soon Jack may not even want you to come to his games. We have a few special years with our children, when they’re the ones that want us around. After that you’re going to be running after them for a bit of attention. It’s so fast Peter. It’s a few years, and it’s over. And you are not being careful. And you are missing it.”
And I don’t want to miss it.