So here I sit on the couch waiting for 10 pm to roll around. Tonight we are being induced, unless someone bumps us that is, and I cannot even start to describe all the things that are going through my mind. Tomorrow I'm going to be a mom. As I type those words I get all teary eyed. You have no idea how long I've waited for this moment.
Waiting for the arrival of a baby really gets you thinking. First I think about how different my life is going to be once she gets here. This morning I slept in real late because who knows when I'm going to be able to do that again. I took my time getting out of bed and didn't even get ready till noon, noon people! This house is going to change so much with this little girl's arrival, I sit here and think of how nice and quiet it is right now and I'm enjoying it for the last time. I think about how clean my house is right now and I'm enjoying it for the last time. I sit and think about how it's our last night being just us, just Brandon and Alyssa, taking a mental image and soaking it all in. But with all these lasts I think about how extremely grateful I am for this little baby, holy cow am I ever so grateful and excited for this new time in our lives.
Then I think about how all these little movements I'm feeling in my belly -the ones that only both of us know about- I'm not going to feel it anymore, it's like a secret club we're in. For the past few weeks I've been missing these movements and I'm still pregnant. Maybe it's the knowing. There's something special about being able to carry a baby in your belly, I swear there is no other feeling like it. The hiccups, the kicks, the elbows, and everything in between.
Then I think about her getting bigger and growing up. My first thought goes to when my brother comes home from his mission, she'll be 18 months old and I cannot even imagine that. I think about her first words, first smile, first tooth, and I think about how I already want to freeze time and keep her little.
I think about seeing Brand hold her for the first time, and holy cow there go the tears again. This little girl will have him wrapped around her finger in no time. I cannot wait to see him be a dad, oh what an awesome dad he is going to be.
Oh, how I'm so excited, anxious, nervous, and anything else you can think of, to have this sweet little baby in my arms.