Sunday seemed like the day of change for us. Isn’t it weird how things happen? All of a sudden your loving what your doing, you don’t see an end in sight and then someone pulls the rug right out from under you. The rug wasn’t exactly pulled from under us, and it really had been a great blessing and calling for Brand and I. Remember how sometimes I talk about my primary kids? Well, this weekend we were released from our callings. I have to admit I was pretty sad when I found out. I started playing the scenario in my mind and saying “don’t cry, don’t cry!” I don’t know what I’m going to do without those kiddos!
I’ve learned so much from them, and I hope they’ve learned from me too.
Yesterday when we walked out of the apartment on our way to church it was raining. When I think about rain I think about clean, and when I think about clean I think about change. Which got me to thinking about almost everything that is going on in our lives. We are literally being cleaned of a calling, starting fresh. We are both starting school and going to have such busy schedules. We will be living on loans and having to find a way to budget what little money we have.
It’s all changing. It’s almost like starting fresh.
The rain on Sunday morning made me realize that this is the start of a new chapter in our lives. It’s a new beginning of sorts. The kind that starts with “and so the rain came down and they started a new life” kind of thing. My life isn’t a story book, not the kind I’ve ever read anyways. But my imagination wonders when I start to think about the things that will happen in these next few months. The changes that we will make in our lives. I can already sense that it’s going to be oh so hard, but in the end oh so worth it.
I look forward to the things that are coming our way, and hope to be able to share my life still.